finally, the past couple weeks I've been way funky. I've been drained of all energy, it's like something is sucking every last ounce of life I have in me. There are, I think several reasons for this...it's an emotional thing that is taking it's toll on me physically.
1. My sister and her family are moving even farther away, only an hour, but still...it's another freakin hour.
2. My bff is moving 4 1/2 hours away from me, she only lives 1 hour away now, and will be leaving me lost, alone, isolated, sad.........Just kiddin. (not really, but I don't want to make her feel bad)!
3. My other single friend is thinking of moving to Salt Lake which is 4-5 hours away. When your single, having other single friends is like life support. Life sustaining nourishment for the soul. When you have friends who have been through the same things you have, like divorce, surviving the single mother thing, worrying about our children, stress over money and everything else that comes with it, well it's nice to talk to someone who "KNOWS" exactly what you are going through.
4. This one got to me more than anything, my long distance relationship is no more. I'm not going into details, but it left me numb for awhile. I'm just starting to come out of my "coma" and get back to thinking that life will be ok. It's been a difficult pill to swallow, but I've survived this far, I'm not going to give up now!!
Anyway, I have to keep reminding myself that "When God closes one door, he opens another"
Well, I hope that there are all kinds of windows and doors opening right now, and one day I will find the right one to walk through.