I'm having an emotional/mental shift and I'm not sure what is going to come from it, but I'm thinking and hoping that this shift is the beginning of a new me, or maybe not new, but better. A me that is more accepting of myself, a me that can look in the mirror and see the extra 20 lbs and love myself anyway, a me that is ok with just being a normal average 40 year old woman. A me that wants to be better and improve in a lot of different areas in my life.
I want to spend more time scrapping and creating. Am I ever going to be Martha? Not in this life, but I can be the Martha of my life.
I want to run, and do it with ease and joy. Am I ever going to be a marathon runner? Maybe!! But if not, that's alright with me, as long as I am running and being consistent...I consider that a WIN!
I want to bake more. Will I ever be Bakerella? I WISH!! She's just plain cool!! But, I can bake and create memories with my daughter (who wants to be the next Cake Boss!)
Will I ever be Amanda from Kevin and Amanda (who is living my dream life btw!) Taking gorgeous pictures and traveling all over, plus eating all the wonderfully sinfully looking cupcakes, cookies, brownies and staying as skinny as she is! How does she do that? Amanda, if by some small miracle you ever read this, please...do tell!!
I just love her!
Will I ever be a Jessica Sprague? I don't think I have enough life ahead of me to learn all that she knows...she freakin ROCKS!!
I guess the point of this post is just for me to get some thoughts out of my head and realize that I don't have to be Martha, or a marathon runner, Bakerella, Amanda, or Jessica, but as long as I am trying and DOING something to progress in the areas of life that matter to me, then I won't be just a normal, average 40 year old woman! I will be creating my own persona and reaching my own potential, and my potential isn't going to look like or be like anyone else. That's the beauty of life and of us as individuals. So, I'm not going to compare myself to anyone else. I'm just going to strive to live my best life and be the best me that I can be!
VERY well said!!! Thank you for voicing that and reminding us that we have to love ourselves for what we are, which is different than anyone else! This 50 year old thanks you for opening her eyes!!
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Love your post! I feel like I am on this journey with you too. Working on focusing on the positive and being happy with myself. I read on Oprah about daily affirmation (http://www.oprah.com/oprahs-lifeclass/Cheryl-Richardsons-Daily-Affirmations). So this week, I have been trying it out. It is amazing how waking up saying: Today is going to be a great day! All is well and so am I" has helped me.
ReplyDeleteI think we all feel like this on some level. Awesome post and to hear it out loud though. :)
ReplyDeleteI think this is part of being the age that we are, we start to live our lives for us and come to the realization that we are great just the way we are.
ReplyDeleteAs for the women you mentioned, good thing I don't know who they are, I don't need to measure myself up to anyone else, lol.